I was a very lost and uneducated young Black man and not knowing what to expect or what I would encounter in my journey into this new world of mass incarceration.
In 1982 I accepted Islam under the teachings of the Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad. I never felt so whole in my life under his teachings. I was blessed to know myself. I was blessed with the Knowledge of God. At that point I was able to see my life changing for the better. I started seeing the Power of God at work even though I had not fully accepted the teachings of Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad [Nation of Islam]. I was still young, wild and my behavior had to be checked many times by older brothers who were doing their best to help me stay on the right path.
As years went on I was able to fully understand what my reasons for accepting the teachings of Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad. My mission was to help raise the dead, help be a guide by giving them life by educating them about God, themselves and this became a life that I could enjoy. I was able to by the Will of Allah [God] to take the knowledge that he blessed me to receive to teach other young men who where considered to be thugs, gang bangers, etc. Those who had no kind of respect or self-discipline about themselves. These young men begin turning into real trustworthy and respectable men. This was done by the Will of God, and not my will. I was able to actively witness this change in myself and others. I was very emotional because we all use to be the same in our transgressions now we are the same in our righteousness.
See, the Power of God is so tremendous that these same young brothers were able to help other young brothers learn to respect themselves and others. SO, I haven’t stopped. I always feel compelled by the Will of God and I am confident I can do more to educate the people about the suffering in prison and the eventual change that can come about through submission to the Will of God. By my sharing this knowledge I have been giving such names by my enemies such as a revolutionary, etc. and even punished for wanting to do the right things. I have even spent many years in lock down as the result of prison official’s manipulation of system policies with the hope that I could be broken. But, I am not some wild beast that one can try to tame for inhuman use. Unfortunately, those who have not awaken have yet to be educated and come into a new mind that is not bestowed upon a savage or wild beasts.
Since, being in prison all of these years I have been asked many questions concerning my incarceration. I will give you the two that have been asked the most by the prison guards, free world workers, and inmates. I will start with the second most asked question. They all wanted to know after all of the years that I have been incarcerated. How have I been able to keep myself from wearing down, looking older. My answer to all of them has been he same. I have nothing to do with this, it is the Will of God. I just try my best to do His Will and not my own. I have to accept Gods Will as being mine and my priority. I’m just being grateful for receiving His Mercy.
The number one most asked question is do I think that if I wouldn’t have come to prison would I be the person I’m today. Now, before I give you my answer to this question I would like to share that with you cause I’m sure that many of you who will read my answers will probably think that I have lost my mind. But, not the ones who know the power of God. “Smile.” So, here we go.
I have told everyone who has ever asked me this question that I am very grateful to Allah for bringing me into prison and allowing me to spend all of these years here because I’m a much better man now. I feel like Allah has given me a whole new life. If it was not for him bringing me here, allowing me to know myself, my life would have been over with long before now. Many would say, “What about all of those wasteful years?” I would reply, “What wasteful years?” Because I have been able to witness these many young brother’s transformation from a savage uneducated life into an intelligent and respectful individual. Seeing this gives me great pleasure because this was only possible by Allah bringing me here.
This is my opinion. I feel that before Allah allows a child to come into His world, He gives that child a mission which that child has no control over and will have to face all the difficulties, struggling that comes with their mission, go wherever that mission takes them. I feel that after Allah allowed me to know myself, and Him. My mission was to come here. Do his work, by His Will, that’s what I have been doing. “Smile.”
Now, this is my conclusion. I would like to say in all of my 58 years I have never had anything put on the Internet or ever thought about it before. I have had the opportunity to talk with a very inspiring and extraordinary little woman whom possesses a big heart. Her name is Anna Cox, and she inspired me to write this about myself. She is a very loving, and caring person.
I pray very seriously that Almighty God Allah will allow these words to have an effect on the life of my readers. By the Will of Allah you will be blessed with reading more of my journey through prison life because I have so much more to offer. I don’t have the knowledge of a professor. But I will confess that I’m a child of God. I seek no glory. My reward will come from Allah. I thank Almighty God Allah for the Most Honorable Elijah Muhammad and without these teachings I would have been still lost and uneducated.